Bugging thoughts about business

Some thoughts about running our school business have been bugging me big time for the past couple of weeks. What am I doing? Am I doing it right? Are my thought processes and current activities in tune with my bigger goal?
I keep reminding myself why I started the whole thing. I want an OUT, out of what has been called a rat maze or trap, when you go to work to trade your time for money all your life. The moment you stop doing it, you have to rely on the little savings you have made so far. You are back in the trap. In this scenario, you have to spend too much of your life at work, after that you prioritize your family and give them time, then sneak a bit of time for a hobby, a study, or any other interest. And life is gone.
So how do I get out, how do I spare time for my life out of the endless cycle of work/trade? How do I end up running and owning a business, instead of slaving my ass and being the same employer I have been all my life? True, I do not have bosses, but still cmon, what we are doing now is far from what I want for me and Nathaniel.
I know I have to outsource. I have to give people work, any people: cleaning people, teachers, even my own kid. I need to start trusting people to do work for me. God knows how much I am struggling with this idea. Even thinking about it gives me unbearable strain in my shoulders. No wonder, since most of my life has been and still is about control.( I control the process and the results.) If I want to grow, I will outsource. Need to think what I can outsource. I know Nathaniel and I are the main workers and we do not have need or money to outsource work to others. But from what I believe about life processes the mind needs to be ready to expand and to encourage the leap into a new direction. When I lighten my psycho baggage of being such a control freak, I can grow, and my business can grow with me. By the end of this post, I am actually excited to move on, and see what life will bring my way.