And here comes the spoiler

Bruce, careful and attentive to details, who loves feeling his feet touch the ground as he walks and who is so dedicated to drinking his green tea that he venturs into China just to stock up on some of the "good produce" of that magic drink, has become my first follower. I got very excited; I trust Bruce, intuitively I trully trust him. Incidentally Bruce became the first spoiler. As I realized I am being read and followed my peace of mind vanished and anxiety came. It is a crazy logic of fear. The fear created by having expectations that i put on myself, or perceive from others, expectations I create, interprete and bear. I know that all expectations must be in my own head, but God knows how much of my life i have spent trying to live up to expectations of others both real and imaginary. But I trust Bruce, and I should start trusting myself that I am a woman enough to deal with the ### that drives my life to the edge. I say 'good bye' to expectations. I say ' hello & welcome, my trusted follower and a good friend, Bruce'. I want to share. I need to share.